This is what I have been avoiding. This. Right now.
Incredible pain coupled with fear and rushing paralysis.
I haven’t had time to even live part of my life.
Now I have all this time and I don’t know where to start.
I have never felt so alone. I remember in the past thinking I was alone, but this right now, this is alone.
My body neglected, stirring at sounds of music, unused and unsure how to be.
My feelings pouring out, my worries, my neurosis, panic.