This is what I have been avoiding

pain

This is what I have been avoiding.  This.  Right now.
Incredible pain coupled with fear and rushing paralysis.
Migraine pulsing.
Tears streaming.
I haven’t had time to even live part of my life.
Now I have all this time and I don’t know where to start.
I have never felt so alone.  I remember in the past thinking I was alone, but this right now, this is alone.
My body neglected, stirring at sounds of music, unused and unsure how to be.
My feelings pouring out, my worries, my neurosis, panic.

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This entry was published on February 20, 2012 at 10:16 pm and is filed under to find out later. Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

One thought on “This is what I have been avoiding

  1. Elizabeth on said:

    Thanks for sharing your blog – you write well and I look forward to reading more.

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